Self-conception is defined as ‘the individual’s belief about himself or herself, including the persons attributes and who and what the self is (Baumeister, 1999)’.
This series of artworks are an investigation into my self-understanding as an artist, and as an individual. Motivation for these artworks stemmed from my well defined understanding of my own teacher pedagogy, and my limited understanding of my artistic practice.
The portraits seek to examine a moment in time. Blurring line between reality and subconscious thoughts, and examining the sub-sections of artist, professional, and student that define the individual. The fragmentation is representative of the many facets of my life, much like what we see as we catch glimpses of our reflections when we walk through the street. It is also reminiscent of Blooms Taxonomy; an education method that breaks down the understanding of creativity into tiers within a pyramid. This model provides basis for not only my teaching practice, but also my artistic practice and informs the design of the artworks, respectively.
There is a sense of contrast within the artwork: fast moving yet relaxed, realistic and abstract; It is within this juxtaposition of methods and techniques that the areas of definition and self-understanding is examined and I can question my self-understanding.
Motivation for these artworks has stemmed from a range of places, but centrally from my undeniable miss-understanding of the art-world.
This year has been a challenge, to say the least - teaching me many different things about 'Art' and what it means to be an artist.
This series of self portraits,I hope, will resonate with others in unique ways. Specifically for your 20-somethings, I hope it helps you feel that you're not alone, and that theres more than just you thinking 'what am I going to do for the rest of my life', or, 'I may swell just stay in retail.'
If you're passionate about something; make it a great part of your life and who you are, and you'll begin to discover why it enticed you in the first place.
I can't wait to see where this journey takes me into the rest of my Visual Arts Masters next year!
Abbey is a practicing Visual Artist and high school teacher.